Yesterday & Today...

I didn't post yesterday. It was Big Chemo Wednesday and it literally kicks my butt! Nothing hurts...it is really just the length of time we spend there. The TV's were not working so it was even longer...usually the Food Channel gets me through it. We were there at 8:15 and home at 3:00! I walked upstairs, took a shower and fell asleep for 2 hours! Ti! We had Cheerios and bananas for dinner. It was all we could manage. Neither Den nor I can read over there. We are in our little private suite but it's still hard to concentrate. Once I get the baggie of Benedryll I am in constant motion for an hour. My legs twitch, I can't sit still, even my words are slurred. It's crazy time. Den sits and laughs! I don't! The bags come in a certain order...steroids, antinausea, Benedryll and then the big guns in scary big bags...taxol and carbo...the stuff that made my skin soft, my nails long, and all of my hair fall out! Sigh! I was really nervous and scared yesterday. My amazing oncologist and baseball fanatic...Dr. Costello...says I have two more Big Chemo treatments which take me to May 10th...of course I embarrass everyone and cry. But I think he is used to it. He wants me to stop my SELF IMPOSED EXILE and go out more. I cry some more and remind him how vain I am about well...about everything about me. He looks at me and tells me I don't realize how beautiful I am. He looks at Den and asks if he minds that he is telling me that and I cry even more. Sigh!

That was my yesterday!

Books!

Finished this...really good...high intensity newsroom, missing woman and well developed interesting characters and their relationships.

Reading this...a really good start...really really really!

Just got this from Vine...I really wanted this one and it just appeared in my queue! Probably it's up next...yummy! I love book surprises!

Today...back to Oncology for the dreaded Nuelasta shot...the one that makes every joint in my body ache but keeps away infections! And fixes stuff! The next few days have the potential to be a little rough! But I am used to it and I can deal with it!

Today I feel really really good and I will treadmill walk soon!

My babies...

always a source of comfort...they have a sense for that...they are on my lap as soon as I come home...watching me...well Lucy does...Roxie falls asleep!

Hugs,

Patty

 

 

 

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